Fine. I am fine. I am really fine. Okay, I am acting. Yes! I am not fine, so sick!
06.15 am, I turn on my laptop, checking the result of that school. It works! Okay, God ask us to be patient for a moment.
10.15 am, checking again. It works! again. Okay, more time for me to pray offcourse.
Then 01.39 pm, after I pray, I turn on my laptop and it was,
I just getting spechless. I just realize one minute then. I shout out on my mom. She getting shocked offcourse. Not long,she bring out my sis to go to school. Nice. In mad condition I just alone in home. Actually I was cried. Yes I was! I called Putri. I cant speak. I told her stammared that I was not accepted in that school.
I know she felt confused too. She told me some great sentences then. Thankyou put :")
Then I send to all of my friend that I getting failed. I just feeling lucky. How not? I have a lot of friends that supporting me too much. Thank you guyyss, Jabintang, Walan, Rifqi Pahlevi, Rifqi Khairul, Salsa, Putri, Kak Oja, Arif, Anggi, and the otheerrss :** Thankyou for your concern to call Catur :") Its help me so lot...
I was cried. You know, I just habitual to get something that I want. It looked to easy for me. Anything that I want could become real. I never failed before. I mean, fail in something that big as this event. I never! You see, how anyone getting envy with my life? But noooowww? I really swear I realize that just Allah The Most Merciful that can make anything like what He want.
Have you understand? Just imagine that you was me! You want to be in high school that you want, then you get a messages like the pic above! Off course depresseed.... And like that what I feel. Swear, I am really sweaar. I am crying to write this...
This is not a maddream! This is the real. And I feel afraid that I wont to know the real. Its more than about love. I never care for love, so I never cry before. But now? Its all about future. I dont know what should I do for next. High school?My parent will talk for that. Its crazeeeh! I just make my friends being dissapointed,make my parent unproud. And make my self being frustated.
I realize that I was lie what I told you about "this is like when a boy wanna tell his feeling for a girl". Its a big lie yeay! Its more than thaat. Fine. Hopefully my future will bright!this is the best I know. Thanks for supporting me dude :--) I still need it. Until the very end of galaxy :"D
Its look like, OH NO! I AM IN AZKABAN! DEMENTOR KISS ME! I AM DEAD. Damnitstrue, I just realize that sometimes I hope I am really a wizard and I could Avada Kedavra my own self. Great eah? :")
Write with tears,
Rizka.
06.15 am, I turn on my laptop, checking the result of that school. It works! Okay, God ask us to be patient for a moment.
10.15 am, checking again. It works! again. Okay, more time for me to pray offcourse.
Then 01.39 pm, after I pray, I turn on my laptop and it was,
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| Mad! |
I just getting spechless. I just realize one minute then. I shout out on my mom. She getting shocked offcourse. Not long,she bring out my sis to go to school. Nice. In mad condition I just alone in home. Actually I was cried. Yes I was! I called Putri. I cant speak. I told her stammared that I was not accepted in that school.
I know she felt confused too. She told me some great sentences then. Thankyou put :")
Then I send to all of my friend that I getting failed. I just feeling lucky. How not? I have a lot of friends that supporting me too much. Thank you guyyss, Jabintang, Walan, Rifqi Pahlevi, Rifqi Khairul, Salsa, Putri, Kak Oja, Arif, Anggi, and the otheerrss :** Thankyou for your concern to call Catur :") Its help me so lot...
I was cried. You know, I just habitual to get something that I want. It looked to easy for me. Anything that I want could become real. I never failed before. I mean, fail in something that big as this event. I never! You see, how anyone getting envy with my life? But noooowww? I really swear I realize that just Allah The Most Merciful that can make anything like what He want.
Have you understand? Just imagine that you was me! You want to be in high school that you want, then you get a messages like the pic above! Off course depresseed.... And like that what I feel. Swear, I am really sweaar. I am crying to write this...
This is not a maddream! This is the real. And I feel afraid that I wont to know the real. Its more than about love. I never care for love, so I never cry before. But now? Its all about future. I dont know what should I do for next. High school?My parent will talk for that. Its crazeeeh! I just make my friends being dissapointed,make my parent unproud. And make my self being frustated.
I realize that I was lie what I told you about "this is like when a boy wanna tell his feeling for a girl". Its a big lie yeay! Its more than thaat. Fine. Hopefully my future will bright!this is the best I know. Thanks for supporting me dude :--) I still need it. Until the very end of galaxy :"D
Its look like, OH NO! I AM IN AZKABAN! DEMENTOR KISS ME! I AM DEAD. Damnitstrue, I just realize that sometimes I hope I am really a wizard and I could Avada Kedavra my own self. Great eah? :")
Write with tears,
Rizka.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Hai kenalin! Gue Rizka, sekarang mahasiswa Konservasi Sumberdaya Hutan dan Ekowisata IPB. Gue sukanya banyak, salah satunya adalah nulis dan makin kesini gue makin menyadari ada banyak hal dalam hidup ini yang kadang perlu dikritisi, didukung, atau disebarluaskan. Makanya blog adalah tempat yang gue rasa tepat untuk menyalurkan semua itu. Sambil sesekali bisa jadi tempat gue berbagi cerita. Salam kenal dan selamat membaca!
Riz,I know your feeling right now. It's very dissapointed when you fail. But trust me, Allah always give the best for you. It's the best way that Allah gives for you. It's not everything, the world is not end yet because this. Just keep spirit, I know you're unbeatable girl:)
ReplyDeletehahaha,suree bebb :")
ReplyDeleteRecently I read this. This is not the end of your life. Not the end of your teenage dream. I know its hard, but I knew that you already did your best.If you're still unbeatable girl, lift your head. Don't cry. Smile. Cheer up! Anyway, take care. Gonna miss you.
ReplyDeleteThankyou,ul :') I'm proud to have bestfrnd like you :'')
ReplyDeleteme too. xoxo :")
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